hi all bloggers,

   sweet day everyone!this is my first time to blog acctualy i dont know how to blog but i decide to

do it cause i cant carry anymore,i want to shout,and i fell i want to give up.

  im mark but thats not my real name.my life is like a dead leaves on the river it goes wherever

the flows may go.cant cross the river,cant hold on the branches just to stop for a while,have no

streangth to figth the flows and make my own.

  my father have a prostate cancer my older brother got insane of problems and drugs my young-

gest sister have a heart disease.i realy want to do everything to make them cure but i think im useless i have no permanent job i cant give them they need my income is soo low its not enough

even to buy foods.sometimes i wonder how lucky the young kids whith rich parents they dont have to worry the foods they eat for everyday.

 i think everything in me now in my life, in my family is soo imposible.in my life its like thers a smoke in my front i cant see what to be happen.

  i write this letter cause i want to share my problems and i need help.but its find if thers no one read

my letters or no one help me im happy to write my problems.and i write this cause my friends know

me as a joker as a happy man but i just pretend i smile when im into them but i cry when im alone i

pretend to be alrigth but it kills me down inside.